How beautiful the moon is to you? You know all of the signs already yet you still wondering yourself is it not? Am I being bold enough to try telling things to you? Or am I too afraid to say what I meant truly just because I'm not ready to lose another? I can't even tell how am I feeling toward you. Yes, I'm still confused as well. Yes, I am worried as well. But I can not hide my feelings in the end, all I can do is just to give you all the possible signs on my mind.
Sometimes I wonder whether is this a good choice or not, or in the end it will be another "you are good without me". Will I miss another chance? Or should I enjoy what we had? I don't even know anymore, I don't even know why am I writing this, I don't even have anything left to lose. I guess I was just too afraid of how you felt after. After all this time, I'm still thinking of what people might think of me. Always.
The most possible reason for all of it was my past. Am I feeling any regret for telling you about my past? Not a single one of it to be honest. But a little part of me says that it could be the reason why. Can I become better in the next moment? After all of this? After what I have done? What do I feel? She knows it all, yet here she is. I don't know what for.
This is not a confession letter, but more of an apology one. I know what you felt for me, but I can't decide what you are to me. I don't know what would happen next, would it be beautiful? Dreadful? or perhaps nothing would happen.
You have no idea how hard I try to make you feel what love is again, but looks who's falling harder?
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